I'm Back!!
Hi! It has been a long time since I've been to this blog but I'm back, my Rudy feelings have called on me ... and here I am to blog about Rudy.
I even intend to do fan fiction (I've set it up here). It may seem like a grandoise idea and maybe it is but he inspires me so much and I've been turning over an idea for a few days now and I'm going to start here soon. I even bought a laptop to do it. The computer I have is very old and clunky --- I can't even load videos and hardly any images. And I can't do it at work. I can do maintenance at work but I can't "create" and be "inspired" while at the same time being called on for assistance with computer/software issues. So, I bought a laptop, for the purpose of blogging and writing about Rudy.
First, where have I been?
During my initation into the world of Rudolph Valentino, where I decided to blog about him because I could not stop thinking about him, I was also dealing with an unsettling personal issue that summer (2006). My son is aspie (it's an autistic disorder that is as mysterious as it sounds). That summer in the early part of August my son had an autistic episode that was very disturbing for me. And he destroyed the laptop that I had (through the job I had at the time) and I wondered at times if it was because I spent too much time on it, watching Rudolph movies and reading about Rudy.
But it was also do to surprisingly finding love. It didn't last though but from August to October I was totally in love with someone. (it was also sadly the last time I have felt such feelings about a living person).
After all this, I sort of became very attentive to my son, who needs me most. I even gave up drinking. I think one of the reasons I'm back is because Rudy has literally replaced my need for escapism (rather than actual liquor).
My son is doing much better by the way. He is still aspie but he has made some great strides and I have reasonable hopes he will be able to lead a life of his own with this autistic disorder.
Second, what brought me back?
It was kind of Sweeney Todd...Johnny Depp. He ignited something in me during that movie and I think it was his singing that did it. I went into my old boxes in the basement looking for a cd I used to listen to back when I was "in love" it was a Bjork cd and that's when I found The Sheik and Son of The Sheik. I was thrilled beyond belief because ....
I thought the DVD was destroyed when my son destroyed my laptop. I thought I left the DVD in there. I emailed the IT group about it and asked and they never responded so I thought I had to get a new one. Although I still kept in touch with my Rudy affection through the yahoo "we will never forget" group, and I always watched his shows when I caught them on TCM ... I just had to focus on my son and my job at that time. (I was laid off last spring but thankfully found a new job).
However, when I got the Sheik and The Son of the Sheik back I had to watch it and I did and it still moved me so much, it jeweled my heart ... it was sparkling and lovely after I watched the Sheik ... and this was while I was listening to the Sweeney Todd soundtrack daily and looking up new Johnny info... which has ceased since I have again rediscovered Rudy.
Johnny Depp as subtle and sexy as he is (like Rudy) is just not Rudy. Rudy is one of a kind and I'm so glad to be reunited with my feelings for him. I have plans to go to his memorial this year.
I hope that whoever reads my words on Rudy enjoys them. I will be stumbling over thoughts and feelings and some times not word things as well as I should and will try to overcome.
But if there is anything you disagree with that I write please let me know or any concerns you have on this blog please let me know. I aim to please and not make anyone offended by anything I may write. I can get kind of crazy with my thoughts. I have kept a journal (on Rudy) and I plan on publishing some of those entries and they are "far out"... but that's what makes it fun, for me at least...if I bring any concern or compliant with my words, let me know --- I will not be offended and will do what I can to make things right.
But again fair warning, this is a creative space and I will be taking great liberities with that in mind. ;)
I even intend to do fan fiction (I've set it up here). It may seem like a grandoise idea and maybe it is but he inspires me so much and I've been turning over an idea for a few days now and I'm going to start here soon. I even bought a laptop to do it. The computer I have is very old and clunky --- I can't even load videos and hardly any images. And I can't do it at work. I can do maintenance at work but I can't "create" and be "inspired" while at the same time being called on for assistance with computer/software issues. So, I bought a laptop, for the purpose of blogging and writing about Rudy.
First, where have I been?
During my initation into the world of Rudolph Valentino, where I decided to blog about him because I could not stop thinking about him, I was also dealing with an unsettling personal issue that summer (2006). My son is aspie (it's an autistic disorder that is as mysterious as it sounds). That summer in the early part of August my son had an autistic episode that was very disturbing for me. And he destroyed the laptop that I had (through the job I had at the time) and I wondered at times if it was because I spent too much time on it, watching Rudolph movies and reading about Rudy.
But it was also do to surprisingly finding love. It didn't last though but from August to October I was totally in love with someone. (it was also sadly the last time I have felt such feelings about a living person).
After all this, I sort of became very attentive to my son, who needs me most. I even gave up drinking. I think one of the reasons I'm back is because Rudy has literally replaced my need for escapism (rather than actual liquor).
My son is doing much better by the way. He is still aspie but he has made some great strides and I have reasonable hopes he will be able to lead a life of his own with this autistic disorder.
Second, what brought me back?
It was kind of Sweeney Todd...Johnny Depp. He ignited something in me during that movie and I think it was his singing that did it. I went into my old boxes in the basement looking for a cd I used to listen to back when I was "in love" it was a Bjork cd and that's when I found The Sheik and Son of The Sheik. I was thrilled beyond belief because ....
I thought the DVD was destroyed when my son destroyed my laptop. I thought I left the DVD in there. I emailed the IT group about it and asked and they never responded so I thought I had to get a new one. Although I still kept in touch with my Rudy affection through the yahoo "we will never forget" group, and I always watched his shows when I caught them on TCM ... I just had to focus on my son and my job at that time. (I was laid off last spring but thankfully found a new job).
However, when I got the Sheik and The Son of the Sheik back I had to watch it and I did and it still moved me so much, it jeweled my heart ... it was sparkling and lovely after I watched the Sheik ... and this was while I was listening to the Sweeney Todd soundtrack daily and looking up new Johnny info... which has ceased since I have again rediscovered Rudy.
Johnny Depp as subtle and sexy as he is (like Rudy) is just not Rudy. Rudy is one of a kind and I'm so glad to be reunited with my feelings for him. I have plans to go to his memorial this year.
I hope that whoever reads my words on Rudy enjoys them. I will be stumbling over thoughts and feelings and some times not word things as well as I should and will try to overcome.
But if there is anything you disagree with that I write please let me know or any concerns you have on this blog please let me know. I aim to please and not make anyone offended by anything I may write. I can get kind of crazy with my thoughts. I have kept a journal (on Rudy) and I plan on publishing some of those entries and they are "far out"... but that's what makes it fun, for me at least...if I bring any concern or compliant with my words, let me know --- I will not be offended and will do what I can to make things right.
But again fair warning, this is a creative space and I will be taking great liberities with that in mind. ;)
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