2 weeks have passed....

I went on a trip to England. It was fun but also emotional. The day of my flight, the library called and said they had one of the books I asked for through an inter library loan. It was the George Ullman's book I've been wanting to read for years. I read a lot of it on the plane to London but started having some drink to calm my nerves. I didn't mention this earlier but I experience some anxiety before a flight. I have not yet reconnect to my feelings for Rudy or the material I have or want to create for/about him. I am posting only to flag that I am making my way back to these things but it's taking awhile. The trip was an emotional one because someone in my family (in England) passed away at a young age and with unfortunate circumstances. The family is also very fun and interesting to be around. It was a good time that has made a strong impression on me and I am again trying to get back to who I am since I've been back. Hopefully, this will happen soon.I adore Rudy and perhaps watching his movies will help me along.